Actress Sshivada, who had played several memorable roles in Malayalam and Tamil, is now mom of 11-month-old Arundathi. In a candid chat, the actress talks to us about motherhood, postpartum depression and her upcoming projects.I am an active person who keeps myself busy with my films, dance and travel. Though I was prepared for pregnancy, when I had to sit at home, at times I used to feel frustrated. I tried to stay happy as everybody told me a mother’s mood affects the baby during pregnancy. At times, due to mood fluctuations, I have cried all alone. I felt nauseous all the time and lost a lot of weight. For me, pregnancy wasn’t easy. Also, I lost three films that I really wanted to be part of. One had a stunt sequence and another one was an intense character. I wanted to work but they were concerned about my health. But I have no regrets. Maybe something good is waiting for me. The initial days were overwhelming. I am supposed to be happy after my baby’s birth and I was excited, but at the same time, I was confused. When she cried, I had no clue what she was crying for and what I should do. Sleeplessness and fatigue irritated me. Though I knew I should take care of my baby, there used to be times when I told amma and (husband) Murali to just hold her. I knew the term postpartum depression through my friends and doctor. I didn’t know its extent. I had sat and cried for no reason. I felt I had no time to take care of myself, my daughter or for anything. I overcame it with the support of my family and husband, who would sit next to me and talk to me. When she slept well, I too did. I listened to music and did things that I like. I didn’t know that postpartum depression was so serious till I went through it. I didn’t know that if I hadn’t taken proper care, it would have adversely affected me. Now, when I realise that I overcame it, I feel happy.