I love going to a church or a gurudwara: Aman Verma

...says Aman Verma, who enjoys the silence in places of worship
I do believe in a power that sustains the world. I don’t pray everyday. I would say, I love going to a church or a gurudwara. I enjoy the silence and I frequently, walk into the church in Bandra and sometimes go to the temple too. The serenity stays with you. According to me, to connect to the ultimate power, you need to have silence.
I draw my sense of spirituality from my mother who has been a great influence in my life. When it comes to spirituality, friends keep telling me how to live my life peacefully. I try to, but again, I am not able to look up to a demi-God or a person to calm me down. I may not show it, but I am very aggressive and my mind is wavery in nature.
I have visited Pushkar, which houses the only Brahma temple in the world, as well as the Ajmer Sharif dargah. Honestly, whenever I meet my mother, it’s like going to a shrine. I’ve heard a lot about Mecca and the spiritual places in Egypt. I also want to visit the Konark temple in Orissa.
I normally believe that if you carry something that clicks for you then you are biased towards it and name it lucky. I carried a white stone or a neelam for a year and a half, it did do a lot for me. But I realised I can’t hang on to that. A piece of stone, garment, a gold coin, you carry that gets you what you want incidentally also makes you biased toward that. I would love to meditate to be more focused in different areas of my life and build my concentration levels. I strongly believe in my gut feeling as I rely on my instincts. All my life, I have done so. If I feel something is going to go right I go with it. This is just like when I took a chance to come to Mumbai; my instincts told me I would be able to do it. And that’s why I am here today.
I am not the right person who can comment on how to live a happy life as I am still seeking answers about my existence and I feel what defines happiness varies for different individuals. But, I can tell you how to survive. The definition of happiness is subjective so it changes from person to person. Everyone would like to live their life in a particular way.
As told to Lisa Antao