Exclusive - Bigg Boss OTT winner Divya Agarwal on being friends with Shamita Shetty and Neha Bhasin: Have forgiven them, but can't forget whatever happened to me

Bigg Boss OTT winner Divya Agarwal, who lifted the trophy of the first season of the reality show is over the moon meeting her family after 42 days. The actress in an exclusive chat with ETimes TV spoke about her family's reaction on winning the show, her journey and how boyfriend Varun Sood boosted her confidence. She also opened up on whether she was bothered by the bashing she received from Karan Johar on Sunday Ka Vaar and if she will be friends with Shamita Shetty and Neha Bhasin. Divya further talked about how she plans to use the winning amount and if she will be part of Bigg Boss 15 hosted by Salman Khan. (Photo: Instagram)

I am very tired and drained. But I am feeling amazing. When I came back home, so many people were waiting for me. I’ve been complaining about being on the show alone and my family has not left my side for a second since I came out. The first thing that I did after coming out of the Bigg Boss OTT house was I met Varun and asked him to order pizza for me. I changed my finale dress and wore something comfortable. I wore something very comfortable. I have been just spending time with my family. They have been showering love on me, blessing me and praising me and I am over the moon. (Photo: Instagram)

Varun, his sisters and my family have always been people with strong opinions. I feel lucky to have such people around with whom I can maintain my individuality. They always support me and appreciate me for whatever I do in life. They have always been my strength. I am like the daughter of their family and they will always support me. (Photo: Instagram)

Varun has always been very supportive and when I came out, I got to know how much he has been supporting me. Even when he came on the show for a few minutes, he spoke such nice things that it boost my confidence level to another height. I got confident that my family and friends are feeling proud of me outside with the way I am playing the game. My mom’s letter also boosted my morale. These things helped me to boost my courage and strength. Before that I was totally blank as I had no one to talk to or had no spirit to fight during the task. I was very low but after reading my mom’s letter and meeting Varun I was back in the game. (Photo: Instagram)

After the first weekend ka vaar I was totally caught off guard by Karan Johar. I had no idea that Karan was going to take my class. I had no idea why I was getting scolded. I don’t have the habit of pleasing people. Look at Zeeshan, he was good to everyone but what happened to him. I would often tell him why you request everyone and stop pleasing people. I think after the first week housemates got a topic to target me. And it was my fault also I accept that after going inside I started talking about my achievements. But that was my idea of showing strength, it was self defence for me. Now, when I’ve come out Varun and my family told me that I came across as very arrogant in the first week. They asked me why I behaved like that when I am not arrogant in my personal life. It was my idea of scaring people but it backfired me. Because of that arrogance factor, my game plan, a lot of people in the house started considering me strong and they thought of isolating me so that I don’t survive in the game. That was their game plan. (Photo: Instagram)

Every time Neha and Shamita showed their hypocrisy, I caught them. I pointed it out to them. They would react to their friend’s mistakes differently but for others they would fight, argue and corner that person. When someone plans to enter Bigg Boss, a lot of close friends guide and give dos and don'ts. We are often told don’t talk about class, always speak about feminism. But when you don’t feel and just do it as a game plan then you will not last in the game. Till the time you don’t feel about women empowerment, feminism or equality it won't reflect in your thoughts. These double standards always reflected in their thoughts and that’s why I couldn’t get along with most of the housemates. (Photo: Instagram)

I haven’t spoken to anyone frankly. After coming out of the show, I am just spending time with my family and Varun. They are very important to me. I couldn’t speak to anyone. If they call me, I will be very cordial because I understand it was a show and there was ego, competition and other factors involved. I can still forgive them but I can never forget what happened to me on the show. According to me you should never forget the bad times you had in life, because if you forget that you are back to normal. You don’t grow in life. Whatever happened to me or whatever I got to learn from Neha and Shamita’s behaviour, now I know what I should do when I am in a situation like that. I have forgiven them but I can’t forget what they did to me. (Photo: Instagram)

While I was in the game, there were a lot of times when I noticed Neha Bhasin and Shamita Shetty’s statements which were very contradictory to feminism or women empowerment. And I know when I am noticing, the audience sitting outside is also very smart and they must be noticing it too. (Photo: Instagram)

Honestly, no I did not feel that. Yes, but I definitely wanted to know the reaction of the outside world, if I was behaving the way I was told during Sunday Ka Vaar or by the housemates. I had started doubting myself. It was started by Shamita and that’s why I always considered her as a strong player, she actually made me doubt myself. I am mentally very strong and when she made me doubt myself, I realised that she is a strong player. I wanted to know what the audiences were thinking outside. I actually did not care much about what was told on Sunday Ka Vaar as I knew that if I am not wrong, audiences are watching it and it will be proved sooner or later. I knew whatever I did on the show was to protect me and it was not wrong in any way. I was never scared of speaking my mind even if it was in front of Karan Johar. Because I knew my truth. I know it came off as rude and arrogant but it came out because I was cornered and isolated. I was not able to understand why I was cornered in the house. (Photo: Instagram)

Honestly, I didn’t know there was a prize money. I got to know when it was announced yesterday. It is my desire to buy a BMW car like Varun, but I know it is not my need at this moment because we already have one. I and Varun are yet to sit and figure out what we will do with the winning amount. Either we will use it as a savings or invest to buy a new house. (Photo: Instagram)

I haven’t got any call for Bigg Boss 15. I think the show has just ended so everyone is on a relax mode. But I am ready if I get a call, I will do it. I am in that winning zone, I will take up the show. Though I am scared of host Salman Khan, I don’t mind doing Bigg Boss 15. (Photo: Instagram)