Anupamaa fame Paras Kalnawat opens up about being cheated on and a toxic relationship that took a toll on him; says, “Main tadap raha tha aur uske 15-16 boyfriend ban rahe the”

Paras Kalnawat, who rose to fame as Samar in Anupamaa, recently opened up about being in a toxic relationship. During a podcast with The Motor Mouth, he recalled a difficult two-year phase and revealed that his ex-girlfriend cheated on him. He also spoke about developing trust issues and how he is still dealing with the trauma. Paras added that the tough time brought him closer to God and made him more spiritual. (Photo: Instagram)

I’m still dealing with it. My last relationship ended about a year and seven months ago, and it was very difficult. She cheated on me and left without giving me any explanation or closure. One day everything was fine, and the next day she was gone. When I tried to ask for a reason, I didn’t get one—just that she had fallen out of love. After that, I didn’t go back or question her again. I took a step back and didn’t take up any projects for almost a year because I was going through that phase. (Photo: Instagram)

I also stayed away from social media—I used to post every day, but that changed because I needed time to process everything. It was a very tough time. I started spending long hours in temples, became more spiritual, and began reading the Bhagavad Gita, trying to find answers I never got from that relationship. That phase changed me a lot. I’ve been in three relationships in my life, but this one was the hardest because she wasn’t just my girlfriend—I was deeply attached to her and saw a future with her. (Photo: Instagram)

People around me were also shocked when it ended. It took a lot for me to come to terms with the heartbreak. I stayed away from the country for quite some time, travelling back and forth to different places. Whenever I was outside India, I felt like I was healing and doing better. But now I realise it was also a way of distracting myself. That distraction still exists somewhere. Whenever I come back home, all those memories hit me again. So I wouldn’t say I’ve completely healed yet—I’m still in that process. (Photo: Instagram)

I have stopped entertaining girls because I have trust issues. My female friends also know that I'm dealing with this issue. In fact, if I start a conversation with girls and it becomes a regular thing and I see the other person caring about me, I just ghost her. I know I shouldn't do it, but I just maintain distance. Main bhagne laga hoon pyaar se... Ab maine Krishna ji par chhod diya hai aap he lekar aana. Bus ye last ho. (Photo: Instagram)

I don’t really open up to people easily, but whatever I feel, I share it with God. Whenever I go to ISKCON, I feel a lot of peace. Sometimes I just sit there for hours. Even if I have to meet a friend, I prefer inviting them to ISKCON instead of going somewhere for coffee. I’d rather sit there and have a genuine, heart-to-heart conversation. I feel the energy there is very pure—you can’t lie in that space. The person in front of you also ends up being completely honest. Somewhere, that environment makes you more mindful of not hurting anyone. For me, it’s like a safe space. (Photo: Instagram)

My last girlfriend was a singer. The more open I was about our relationship, the more she chose to keep it hidden from her friends and others. That was the first red flag, but I didn’t understand it at the time—I thought she just wanted to focus on her career. She would tell people she was single, and I started believing everything she said. I used to care for her and check on her out of concern, but she would accuse me of spying on her. (Photo: Instagram)

Eventually, I stopped asking about her or showing that concern.I slowly started finding out what she was doing behind my back. Main yahan tadap raha tha jbreakup ke baad aur wahan uske 15-16th boyfriend ban rahe the. While I was struggling here, she was getting involved with multiple guys. It came as a huge shock because most of those people were known to me. (Photo: Instagram)

Whenever I saw them, it would trigger me emotionally. One of them even used to call me ‘bhaiya’ and knew everything I was going through. He knew what I was going through, he would tell me 'bhaiya ab ek saal hogaya hai aapko move on kar lena chahiye, aap kya kar rahe ho apne saath. (He would advise me to move on). But later I found out he was also involved with her. When I confronted him, he admitted it. He told me I could slap him if I wanted and that the girl was not important to him, but I chose to forgive him and move ahead. (Photo: Instagram)